Last three months
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mrsninomiyaOctober 1 2020
It’s the last three months with #Arashi:
After the hiatus announcement, I intentionally stepped back from following them. You see, my first reaction to pain has always been to runaway. My mind flash forwarded to 2021, and right there and then I felt a great void. I was so scared of that. Arashi has been with me for 14 yrs of my life and I really felt that something precious is being taken away from me.I understand and wholeheartedly accept their decision. I truly respect them for that and as much as I wanted to send them off with a smile, I couldn’t.
Despite having my friends who stan other artists, telling me how fortunate we are to have an extremely sweet, caring and considerate group like #Arashi because they took the liberty of preparing us for their hiatus, I couldn’t take their words at face value.
The fear of them having this hiatus that would eventually lead to disbandment and not ever returning as five took over. I tried to kill every ounce of hope of their return just to numb the pain
I thought I needed to slowly desensitize from them, so when 2021 comes, I would’ve been already used to living without them.
I still occasionally check for updates but I still couldn’t bring myself to watch voyage or any of their shows because I couldn’t deny the twinge I feel in my heart whenever I remember that the their time with us is slowly diminishing. But then, COVID 19 came and quarantine in my country hit me hard and I found myself running back to them. Arashi saved me as always. During those times, I found myself searching everything I may have missed after that fateful announcement and as expected I really did miss a ton of things. Especially those countless times that they reassured fans that they are not disbanding and that they will return. I missed to witness in real time on how grateful they are to the fans who have supported them throughout their careers.
I missed those proud moments when they sang for the emperor then jet stormed all over Asia to reach out to their fans. I missed the joy of witnessing their SNS launch and their first IG live and lots and lots more.
This was the consequence of running away and I feel so much regret because of it.
I eventually caught up and by the time #WheneverYouCall was released, I cried tons and tons. The light of hope was ignited in me once again. It was the ultimate assurance I needed that they are not going away.
In your last three months with us, please allow me to apologize:
I’m sorry Arashi. I’m sorry that despite being your long time fan, I was not able to trust your words immediately. I’m sorry that I let fear take over me. But now, I’ve come around. It took me a while, but here I am - determined to run these last few months with you.
I know that 2021 onwards is still gonna hurt so bad but I take comfort in the fact that we journeyed and have such good memories with you.
The hiatus is not about #Arashi disappearing, rather the hiatus is part of #Arashi’s journey.
I no longer see the hiatus as the end, but rather a part of your journey. Just like how the helicopter in Hawaii on your 15th anniversary meant as briefly passing by on your journey.
#Arashi will fly again, this time soaring even higher. That is our hope.
#Arashi is not only when the 5 of you are together, Arashi is also the five of you individually. You carry Arashi wherever and whenever you go that is why I know in my heart that Arashi is here to stay.
This seem like a message I would write on Dec 31 ne? But I just can’t express my gratitude enough for bringing me back, for saving me and constantly reaching out.
Thank you Ohno-kun, Sho-chan, Aiba-chan, Nino and MatsuJun.
ありがと #嵐
Let’s make the most out of the remaining three months! Yoroshiku
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I posted this on twitter last Oct 1 2020. I just thought it would be nicer to have it in DW for easier access for myself.
It’s the last three months with #Arashi:
After the hiatus announcement, I intentionally stepped back from following them. You see, my first reaction to pain has always been to runaway. My mind flash forwarded to 2021, and right there and then I felt a great void. I was so scared of that. Arashi has been with me for 14 yrs of my life and I really felt that something precious is being taken away from me.I understand and wholeheartedly accept their decision. I truly respect them for that and as much as I wanted to send them off with a smile, I couldn’t.
Despite having my friends who stan other artists, telling me how fortunate we are to have an extremely sweet, caring and considerate group like #Arashi because they took the liberty of preparing us for their hiatus, I couldn’t take their words at face value.
The fear of them having this hiatus that would eventually lead to disbandment and not ever returning as five took over. I tried to kill every ounce of hope of their return just to numb the pain
I thought I needed to slowly desensitize from them, so when 2021 comes, I would’ve been already used to living without them.
I still occasionally check for updates but I still couldn’t bring myself to watch voyage or any of their shows because I couldn’t deny the twinge I feel in my heart whenever I remember that the their time with us is slowly diminishing. But then, COVID 19 came and quarantine in my country hit me hard and I found myself running back to them. Arashi saved me as always. During those times, I found myself searching everything I may have missed after that fateful announcement and as expected I really did miss a ton of things. Especially those countless times that they reassured fans that they are not disbanding and that they will return. I missed to witness in real time on how grateful they are to the fans who have supported them throughout their careers.
I missed those proud moments when they sang for the emperor then jet stormed all over Asia to reach out to their fans. I missed the joy of witnessing their SNS launch and their first IG live and lots and lots more.
This was the consequence of running away and I feel so much regret because of it.
I eventually caught up and by the time #WheneverYouCall was released, I cried tons and tons. The light of hope was ignited in me once again. It was the ultimate assurance I needed that they are not going away.
In your last three months with us, please allow me to apologize:
I’m sorry Arashi. I’m sorry that despite being your long time fan, I was not able to trust your words immediately. I’m sorry that I let fear take over me. But now, I’ve come around. It took me a while, but here I am - determined to run these last few months with you.
I know that 2021 onwards is still gonna hurt so bad but I take comfort in the fact that we journeyed and have such good memories with you.
The hiatus is not about #Arashi disappearing, rather the hiatus is part of #Arashi’s journey.
I no longer see the hiatus as the end, but rather a part of your journey. Just like how the helicopter in Hawaii on your 15th anniversary meant as briefly passing by on your journey.
#Arashi will fly again, this time soaring even higher. That is our hope.
#Arashi is not only when the 5 of you are together, Arashi is also the five of you individually. You carry Arashi wherever and whenever you go that is why I know in my heart that Arashi is here to stay.
This seem like a message I would write on Dec 31 ne? But I just can’t express my gratitude enough for bringing me back, for saving me and constantly reaching out.
Thank you Ohno-kun, Sho-chan, Aiba-chan, Nino and MatsuJun.
ありがと #嵐
Let’s make the most out of the remaining three months! Yoroshiku
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I posted this on twitter last Oct 1 2020. I just thought it would be nicer to have it in DW for easier access for myself.
